Support in an Unlikely Place

I've mentioned that I rejoined Twitter and have been playing around over there a little bit.  Last week, as I sat on the couch, staring at the treadmill a few feet from me, I randomly tweeted that I needed someone to motivate me to get on the treadmill.  A little whe later, someone tweeted me back suggesting that we motivate each other.  Being relatively new to Twitter (this time around,) I have only interacted with this person once or twice.  I was really quite surprised that she suggested helping each other, but I'm thrilled nonetheless!

The next day, I got my derrière on the treadmill and walked two miles!!  I ended up not walking again until today (three days later) but I got back on, with the support of this random person on the internet. 

I have quite a bit of weight to lose- about 50lbs.  I've been struggling with depression and self loathing for quite a long time, but I'm taking the first steps (for the umpteenth time) to reclaim my body.  I've had body image issues since I was about 12 years old. I've struggled with eating disorders from one end of the spectrum to the other.  For the first time ever, I can honestly say I don't feel healthy right now, and it scares me. I don't want to die and leave my children motherless. 

I'm terrified of slipping back into old habits though.  So I'm taking this one day at a time- even moment by moment if I need to.  I will conquer this weight problem. I am determined, but I know I may fall from time to time, and I have to be okay with that!